I purposely write this entry before the next entry, hoping that nobody will notice this. Thus, nobody would read this. Hopefully... unless I have a very detail and obedient reader which I don't think so hehehee...
This entry is really meant for me, for my own eyes. I'm a bit upset now. Okay... not upset actually. I'm miserable because someone whom I saw tonight really reminded me of someone who used to made me sad, angry and jealous, long time ago.
When I saw the face, I knew I saw it somewhere... 1 of the pictures that I've ever saw. Why the face had to come today? After I had a very enjoyable moment one whole day until tonight... Help me Ya Allah.. help me to erase the memory from my mind. How could I? I know that I'll be seeing the face again.
Perhaps, I should try to forgive and forget. The person who has the face is innocent. Totally harmless. It's not the person's fault for having that face. It is given by Him. Also, it's not the other person who originally own the face's fault for making me had to think of the face.
Whomever besides me, who tried to understand the above statement, better don't because it's only me who would understand this.
The previous person who used to own the face is not guilty too. It was only my mind, my conscious mind... Why should I get angry? Why should I be jealous. The person didn't even know me. I never met the person either.
Help me Ya Allah... Help me... please......