A 15 seconds of tense

I had to delay the story about my schedule change because I have one story that I can't wait to write in the blog. It happened last night.


My husband's friend dropped by to borrow some tools from him. Since I was without my proper attire, I went inside my room and closed the door. Shahmey was outside. I wasn't worried about him since Abang was there to look after him. Sophea and Sobhan were already sleeping.


Shahmey knocked on my door. Before I was there to open it, he already left. I guess he went to his Abah. After a while, I heard the sounds of someone closing the door. I guess Abang's friend has left our house. About an hour later, I looked at the clock. It was 11 something. I didn't hear Shahmey's voice. I presumed Shahmey already felt asleep in the tv room. I was thinking, why didn't Abang brought Shahmey to the room if Shahmey was really sleeping.


I went outside to check things out. I saw Abang was sitting in the tv room. Shahmey wasn't with him! I asked Abang about Shahmey. Abang stood up and told me that he thought Shahmey was with me. I went inside the kids' room. Both Sophea and Sobhan were sleeping comfortably under the comforter. I asked the helper whom already went to sleep earlier. Shahmey wasn't with her either. I stood there with so many bad thoughts. Where could Shahmey be??


Abang opened the store room - searching for him in every possible angle. I really hope he actually felt asleep there. Nope! He wasn't there. Ya Allah! Where could my son be? Abang opened the bathroom's door. I was telling myself - no!! don't tell me he felt asleep in the toilet. But, my inner self was convincing me, nothing bad would happen to Shahmey. He was safe. I went to look in the kids' room again. I went closer to the kids. I pull the comforter a bit.


Shahmey was sleeping in the middle of Sophea and Sobhan! I didn't see him because he was small. His head wasn't on the pillow. So, it was kind of covered by the comforter. Alhamdulillah. My tear dropped. The tears of relief and happiness. I picked Shahmey up and hugged him tight. I can't stop from continuing crying. A 15 seconds lost had already made me stressed out like h*ll. What about those mothers who lost their child and still couldn't find them? Oh dear... I just can't imagine myself being in their position. Nauzubillah...

puppy love ;)

oops!! It's not about me. I was verbally tagged (boleh ke cam tu? heheheee..) by a lovely Misz A, to 'reveal' any situation that I had to handle during my tenure as a College Counselor in my previous workplace.


Before I proceed, let me make one declaration here. By right, a Counselor shall keep a secret (any case that he/she had to handle) from anybody unless it could endanger the client (a person who went for counseling session) or others who involved in the particular situation. In other words, a Counselor shouldn't blabber about the case.


This particular story that I'm gonna write is not a serious case. It was not even a proper counseling session. It was just like an advising session between a sister and her younger brother. I'm sharing the story with a hope that my young silent readers would take this as a point to ponder.


Richard (not a real name) came to see me in my office on one particular day, after being graduated from the college. I was quite close to Richard as he's holding a position that has to do with my jobscope. He came to see me quite often while he was a student. He was a very friendly and jolly guy indeed. That day, he was not like he used to be. He looked upset. I asked him whether he wanted to share anything with me. He was quiet at first. Then he started to talk, bit by bit.


It was about his girlfriend name Cindy (a fake name) who was a few years younger than him. The girl was my student too. I knew Cindy quite well - the good and the bad. Richard told me, Cindy didn't 'want' him anymore.

"Dia dah ada orang lain, puan..."

I was laughing inside when he uttered that to me. Its not that I was happy he's being dumped. No!! I pity for him actually. I was laughing because I had told him once that the girl didn't deserve him. Of course I didn't tell Richard about all the bad things I knew about Cindy. I would never tell him. But, I did tell him to think several times before starting a love affair with Cindy.


For me, Richard was much better in terms of personality, behavior and looks! Well, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. Who cares huh! Since I was quite close to Richard, I told Richard,

"Saya rasa, dia tak sepadan dengan awak. Awak deserve yang lebih baik.."

He just smiled then, denying my statement. But, that day, he was gloomy. He told me how Cindy had distanced herself after Richard graduated from the college. According to Richard's friends, Cindy became close with a guy who was younger than her (another guy in the same college - her junior!). They saw Cindy always went out with this guy.


I remember seeing Richard and Cindy a few months before Richard left the college. They were very closed as 'a couple'. Cindy was always there when Richard needed him. She even took care of Richard when he was hospitalized. When I went to visit Richard in the hospital, I saw her sitting besides his bed. She was blushing when she noticed me walking towards the room (malu malu la tu.. ;))


Whenever Richard came to see me, Cindy's name was always on his lips. He asked for Cindy's certificate. He asked about Cindy's performance. Of course I didn't disclose things to him. He had to ask the girlfriend himself. Hello.... I'm a Counselor, not Cindy's mother. Though we're closed, that doesn't mean I could tell him everything.


I told Richard to be patient (I didn't tell him padan muka though.. tak nak dengar cakap orang sangat. I should? hehee..). He deserved a much better girl. He has got the looks and personality. He's not convinced then because he was still frustrated. I guess by now, he's got a new girlfriend already yippee!! heheheee... (only my guess laaa)


About a year and a half after that, Cindy's new boyfriend came to see me. He was asking for Cindy's excellent performance certificate (Cindy has left the college - graduated). I told myself,

"you'll be another Richard one day..."

and smiling while passing the certificate to him (by the way, Cindy asked me to give the cert to that guy).



Moral of the story:

always give a 100% doubt instead of 100% trust to a new boyfriend/girlfriend!