Showing posts with label the inner me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label the inner me. Show all posts

Friday, November 14, 2008

Cerewet (Fussy) vs Pelengkap (Perfectionist)



Setelah beberapa hari dipendamkan, akhirnya semalam dan hari ni Neeza 'mengamuk'. Mungkin disebabkan emosi sendiri yang tak stabil ataupun mata ni dah sakit sangat dengan apa yang Neeza lihat. Tak tahu lah nak kata sama ada Neeza ni seorang yang fussy ataupun struggling for perfection.


Kalau tengok rumah bersepah, memang rasa sakit sangat mata. Mulut pun mula lah bising. Masa dulu, takde siapa nak mengemas, anak-anak lah yang kena kemas. Itu pun kalau diorang tak sibuk dengan sesi menyusun barang untuk buat rumah lah, buat sekolah lah dan buat sepah yang lebih betulnya. Sekarang ni senang sikit sebab ada helper. Bab kemas rumah so far Alhamdulillah. Memang tak nampak lah sampah kat lantai tu.


Satu benda yang Neeza agak tak happy ialah bab menjemur baju. Kami takde dryer jadi baju perlu dijemur. Bukan di luar pun. Store tu kami jadikan laundry room - untuk menjemur dan mengiron baju. Dari awal lagi Neeza perhatikan cara sidia menjemur baju memang lah sangat menyakitkan mata. Neeza tak lah harap dia jemur baju ikut warna ataupun mesti sama panjang atas bawah. Tapi, kalau baju yang dijemur tak diterbalikkan dan main letak tanpa regangkan dulu baju tu, geram jugak tengok. Macam mana agaknya rasa bila tengok kain yang bergumpal dalam washing machine tu, bila dijemur, tak ubah rupa gumpalan tu? Main letak gitu aje. Lepas tu sidia complain pulak kain tu lambat kering. Memang lah tak kering kalau kain tu bergumpal.


Semalam, Neeza perasan sidia dalam bilik tv - melayan Shahmey sebenarnya. Neeza masuk store tengok pemandangan yang menyakitkan hati. Tempat jemuran masih banyak tapi dia boleh perap kain dalam bakul. Neeza pun apa lagi. Buka bilik tv. Ewah!! Dia boleh lepak depan tv sambil baring baring tu. Cepat cepat dia bangun dan duduk. Neeza panggil dia ke stor. Apa lagi, Neeza tegur lah. Tapi masih boleh control nada suara, rasanya la. Tapi nampak macam dia agak terasa sebab lepas pada tu dia tak duduk diam. Tapi, dia betul kan sikit sikit aje kain tu.


Pagi ni, Neeza masih tengok keadaan yang sama. Bayangkanlah, kain yang dah 5 hari masih tak kering lagi. Sebabnya, dia main letak aje kain tu dalam bakul. Grrrrrr!!! Memang nak jadi incredible hulk rasanya nih! Neeza pun terus betulkan semua kain tu seperti mana yang Neeza dah selalu cakap pada dia. Dah siap tu, Neeza panggil dia untuk tengok. Hampir 70% kain Neeza terbalik kan. Dan ada rupanya kain yang dah kering tapi dia tak angkat pun. Bila susun semula, memang cukup ampaian tu. Jadi, takdelah alasan nak perap kain dalam bakul.


Disebabkan Neeza sibuk membetulkan kain baju di hanger tu, nasi lemak yang Neeza jerang hangit 1 periuk! Padan muka Neeza sendiri. Mengamuk lagi sampai lupa yang Nasi lemak ada atas dapur. Neeza tak suka guna rice cooker sebab.. entahlah.. memang tak suka. Kalau guna pun, time nak masak banyak benda dan dapur tak cukup. Tapi, itu jarang terjadi sebab knowing me, bukannya rajin masak banyak pun... :)


Nampak gayanya, si dia ni rajin buat kerja yang nampak di mata sahaja. Yang macam dalam stor tu, dia ingat kami tak check, jadi tak payah kisah.


Rumah kami tak lah besar mana. Memang dia banyak berehat pun lately. Boleh baca buku. Boleh bergayut dan sms. Kalau dia jaga Shahmey, bermakna berehat juga sebab dia cuma duduk di bilik tv dan tak buat apa pun. Memang banyak sangat masa rehat. Sebab tu lah bila kain tu dia buat macam tu, Neeza rasa bengang sangat.


Oh ya! Hari tu Neeza perasan botol susu Shahmey tak dibasuh dengan betul. Bahagian atas botol yang ada puting tu, dia tak cabut dan cuci pun. Mungkin dia ingat, dia yang akan buat susu jadi Neeza tak perasa. No way.. Walaupun ada helper, hati Neeza tak percaya 100% pada helper. Neeza masih buat susu Shahmey sometimes. Jadi, bila Neeza tengok puting botol tu masih ada sisa susu dan memang tak berbasuh, terus Neeza panggil dia dan tanya. Depan dia jugak Neeza buka puting tu dan basuh. Siap bagi suggestion lagi dia tu, tak rebus air panas ke? Amboiiii... sedap betul dia kan..


Bila Neeza cerita kat Abang, Abang kata memang lah sikap diorang ni macam tu - sesetengah tu la. Kalau tidak, tak lah pulak itu kerjanya. Abang suruh sabar aje dulu. Memang dah serik kalau ikutkan ada helper ni. Kalau tak disebabkan keadaan Neeza yang tak larat ni, memang tak nak ambik pun. Buat sakit hati aje. Biar mata sakit tengok rumah bersepah. Jangan sakit hati, sakit mata dan sakit jiwa bila kita dah cakap banyak kali tapi tak ikut jugak. Dah lah bayar bukannya murah. SR*000 sebulan tu!!! Terasa juga nak tukar tapi takut pulak yang akan datang nanti lebih teruk lagi. Nak tak nak, sabar ajelah dulu.


Tapi, wonder jugak.. Neeza ni cerewet sangat ke yek? Entahlah...

Friday, August 15, 2008

Counting days



Today is Friday the 15th August 2008. Another 2 days will be a BIG DAY for my 2nd brother, Fairuz (Mohd Adzim Fairuz). He will become a husband to his fiancee, Noor Azlin. He's getting married on 17th August 2008.


Being the eldest in the siblings and the closest to Fairuz when he was small, of course not being able to attend his big day is the least in the list that I would choose. But, his happiness is much more important. The earlier plan is to have it in October, after the Eid. I'll be in M@laysia then. But, the bride side wouldn't really agree on it because the much much earlier planning (during their engagement ceremony) is, the wedding should materialize less than a year after their engagement.


It's already a year and a half. I don't blame the bride side for asking to have the wedding earlier than October. Since my brother's fiancee can only take leave during August (she's a teacher), they decided to have it on that date.


Me? I'm pretty sad for not being able to witness my brother pronouncing his akad in front of the kadhi. Very sad indeed... Yet, I have to redha because that's the decision made by Allah. We can plan but He will decide.


Yesterday, I was happy attending a birthday party of Aisya, Kak S daughter. We had a good time chatting with friends from Jubail and Khobar. I thought of updating yesterday's event but I am too sad thinking about my brother's wedding. Perhaps my friends, As and Liza will update on that soon. Hopefully.. because I don't think I'm in the mood of updating any picture at the moment.


By the way, this is not the reason why I was so upset last week. I guess, I just have too many sad stories huh! Let it be because this is one of the ways I'm expressing my feelings - by writing and no one can question me directly :).

Monday, August 11, 2008

Tag by Fadzila

Fadzila, the adik engineer with a cute daughter named Aliya, from Bangi tagged me. Lots of personal questions hehehe.. No problem coz' they're not too personal. I can share this with everyone :).

  1. When you buy greeting cards, are the words or the picture more important to you?
    The words! I'll make sure the card contains all the words that I want to write but I don't have to write hehehe.. (cheeky huh!)


  2. What's your favorite kind of cake?
    Chocolate cake (moist one please..) and cheesecake


  3. Do you ever make gifts for people, if so what, or do you buy them?
    Rasanya tak pernah.. I'm not a creative kind of person - better buy them - of course the price is depending much on my pocket ;)


  4. What's your favorite holiday?
    Pergi Egypt masa study dulu - educational excursion. We went Nile river cruising and tengok balley dance hehehehh.. (first time tengok tu). I wish I could there again, with my family pulak tapi tengok balley dancer tu tak kot sebab I've underage kids hehehh.. Yang best bukanlah tengok balley dance tu tapi best dapat masuk pyramid.. 1 of the 7 wonders kan..


  5. Are you going on holiday this year? If so, where?
    Insyaallah - 3 weeks holiday in M@laysia. Hello.... for S@udi, going to M@laysia is the greatest holiday tauuu...!!


  6. What was the best party you've ever been to?
    Birthday party hahahah!! I've never been to any other kind of party. errr.. party tupperware kira tak? hahahah!!


  7. If you are married, describe your wedding. If not, what would your ideal wedding be like?
    My wedding was done all in 1 day. Pagi, akad nikah. Tengahari sanding. Then malam, sanding lagi depan family, tukar-tukar baju. Ada baju minang (cekak perut tu), baju Jepun (kimono la tu), baju Hindustan.. ops!! hindustan?? heheheh.. pakai gaun masa potong cake.. one of my precious moments.. :). Yang tak bestnya, masa makan beradab, Abang cakap "pakai apa kat muka tu? macam tepung gomak!!" Hahahaa.. memang tebal betul make up. Kalau tidak, my cousin tak cakap pulak, "Kak Neeza macam anak patung!" hehehe.. barbie doll ke snow white?? hahaha...


  8. What's the most romantic thing that's ever happened to you?
    Romantic? apa ye nak try ingat ni.. takdelah rasanya.. Abang tak reti sangat romantic-romantic ni.. Dia tak pernah bagi bunga pun. Tapi, dia selalu bagi birthday present.. :). Itu mesti tau sebab nanti ada orang buat muka masam :P.


  9. What's your favorite girl's name?
    Sophea and Sobhan - my girls of course


  10. What's your favorite boy's name?
    Shahmey - who else kalau bukan anak teruna saya ;)


  11. Which celebrity would you like a dream date with?
    Lead singer Westlife.. tak tahu la nama dia hehehe.. jangan maraaahhhh..


  12. Which female celebrity do you find beautiful?
    Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder kan.. rasanya Maya Karin kot walaupun I don't really like her.. :D


  13. Which male celebrity do you think is attractive?
    Entahlah kan. Everyone has his own attractive feature.. no name..


  14. What is your best character trait?
    Wah wah!! ni macam nak puji diri sendiri ni.. tapi sape lagi nak puji kita kalau bukan kita kan.. should be proud of myself hehee.. err.. I think I'm loving towards the one I love. I may not show it but deep inside I actually am..


  15. What is your worst habit?
    Pergi kedai nak beli barang. Belek-belek letak. Belek-belek letak. Sebab tak puas hati dengan harga or design (selalunya harga laa). That's why kalau pergi dengan Abang, Abang always give me money and ask me to shop myself. He would wait outside and duduk la. Kalau dia kena ikut jugak, dia akan kata, "okay tu. cantik dah. ambik la" Gerammmmnyaaaa... hehehe..



Tu aje. Senang kan. Macam fun pulak buat tag ni. Thanks Fadzila for tagging me for this one. Dapatlah Fadzila kenal akak lebih dekat kan.. heheheh..


Kita lihat sape pulak nak kena tag ni:

1. Abah di Liverpool, UK

2. As di Jubail, Saudi Arabia

3. Liza di Jubail jugak

4. Adry di Tawau, Sabah

5. Anisz di KPTM Kuantan

6. Noniey di KPTM Kuantan

7. Lieyn di KPTM Kuantan

7. Hidayah di KPTM Kuantan

8. Yatie di Mansuroh, Mesir




Silalah jawab tag ni ya kalau sudi.. Babai and salam to all :)

Monday, June 23, 2008

am I really?


I really have no mood to write, though I may have something in mind. After reading this in Noame's blog, I decided to take this test myself. It was really just for fun though - no tilik nasib whatsoever here...




You Should Be a Film Writer


You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind.

You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life.

Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling.

And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!







Let me laugh a bit.. Ha! Ha! Ha!!! A film writer?? I'd love to write one but nobody's offering me... Yeah right Neeza!!! As if you have time for that!


Telling the truth, I do love to create a story, in my mind usually - a story of my own. But, I never imagine myself writing a film... that's too far from reality I guess...

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Takziah to Kak Elle and Akuni tag me again!!

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Edited on 12 June 2008 at 7.29pm (Saudi time):

Takziah buat Atok (ayah Kak Elle) yang telah kembali ke Rahmatullah pada petang semalam 6.34 ptg 11 June 2008 (waktu S'pore/M'sia). Neeza doakan roh Atok sentiasa tenang di sana bersama golongan yang dikasihi Allah s.w.t. Alfatihah....

Kak Elle, mungkin ini lah yang terbaik... mungkin Akak sayangkan Atok tapi Allah lebih tahu apa yang terbaik buat Atok. Tabahkan hati, Kak Elle...



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Dush!!! (tumbuk manja hehee..). I think this is a 2nd tag from Akuni dearie . I guess I have to complete these...


7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:

1. Will be 34 this November (according to Hijri Year - already 35!)
2. Married at the age of 25 (tapi my relative kata, awalnya!!)
3. Easy to make friends
4. Hard to trust people
5. I like spicy food and all sorts of cakes!
6. I think I'm still childish at times ;)
7. Not into sports (sorry...)


7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:

1. Losing something / someone
2. black out (I always imagine the worst)
3. Blood
4. Get scolded
5. Get sick
6. Unintentionly making someone feel sad / bad
7. being late for an appointment


7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST:

1. Sabar je la..
2. Ye la tuuu..
3. Ye ke...?
4. Ek elehh...
5. Bismillah..
6. cepatlah buat homework.. (sesuai dengan keadaan sekarang)
7. Kan Ummi dah kata... (familiar??)


7 THINGS I TREASURE THE MOST:

1. My husband, 3 lovely kids, parents and siblings
2. Childhood memories
3. Happiness
4. My wedding pictures
5. friends
6. Good health
7. smile on my husband's and kids face...


7 FIRST TIME THINGS I EVER DID:

1. Pegang ular and lilit kat leher (eeeee...)
2. get married
3. naik cable car when I was 8 months pregnant
4. I guess everything else is the first time...


7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS:

I don't wish to tag anyone... so, mine will stop here :)

Monday, June 9, 2008

feeling not well




I'm not sure if my friends noticed about my few recent entries 'sound' a bit different from usual. Quite short and nothing much were written. Kinda boring I guess. I admit, they were boring. I was a bit lazy since I came back from M@laysia, recently. No mood to update my blog. To worsen things, I'm not feeling well. Headache, flu, sneezing all add up to my laziness to write something in the blog.


May be it's the weather. May be it's my body. Hormonal changes - my body is adjusting to the weather ;). I hope, I'll be okay soon. Insyaallah..


Friday, June 6, 2008

8 perkara yang cikgu jawe nak tahu ;)

Sebelum balik Cuti Cuti M@laysia baru ni, Neeza di tag oleh seorang jejaka kacak (hmmm.. tak pernah tengok pun dia sebenarnya) bernama cikgu jawe . Dah prepare entry tu tapi terperuk dalam post list sebab belum complete.


Soalan dari cikgu jawe macam ni: senaraikan 8 perkara yang ingin anda beritahu kepada semua bloggers (kepada yang membaca je lah kot kan..)


Ini senarainya...


  1. Neeza adalah anak sulung daripada 5 orang adik beradik. Tapi kalau tengok badan, paling kecil antara 5 tu - tak cukup zat kot hehehee!!!


  2. Paling manja dan ada banyak sedikit keras kepala. Kalau nakkan sesuatu, Neeza akan pastikan dapat juga dengan cara apa sekalipun (cara yang halal lah ye...). Mungkin sebab faktor anak sulung (??).


  3. Masa kecil dulu, sangat suka memanjat - panjat pokok buah lah sebab nak ambil buah tu. Pokok2 yang tak berbuah tak suka... (buang karan je...)


  4. Mula-mula belajar memandu dengan Ayah Neeza. Dia ajar guna kereta dia dan bawak keliling padang bola (mesti dia takut anak dia rosakkan kereta dia kalau ajar atas jalan raya). Mula memandu di atas jalan raya pula selepas 2 tahun dapat lesen sebab tak nak pakai P kat kereta... (sanggup tu). Lagipun lepas dapat lesen tu, Neeza terus kerja di Subang Jaya dan pergi balik kerja naik bas. Takde kereta sendiri masa tu. Takkan nak bawak bas kot... hahaha!!!


  5. Bercita-cita nak jadi doktor tapi disebabkan Ayah suruh ambil tawaran belajar Rancangan Bersama, terpaksa ambik course lain. Tapi elok gak tak jadi doctor sebab Neeza ni, tengok darah pun rasa macam nak pengsan...


  6. Fobia bila kena pergi kubur (bukan takut kubur - errrr... takut la jugak hehee..) sebab masa kecik, pernah kena gigit dengan pacat kat kawasan perkuburan. Setiap kali pergi kubur, mesti mata akan pandang bawah. Takut ada pacat.


  7. Neeza seorang yang simple dan bukan brand maniac. Baju-baju Neeza semuanya yang biasa-biasa saja. Ada baju kurung Neeza berharga RM14 sepasang (belum jahit). Syaratnya, mestilah selesa. Ada yang mahal tapi tak selesa tak guna juga kan.


  8. Makan semua benda kecuali ikan sungai / air tawar. Minta maaflah.. bukan nak kata apa, tapi memang tak boleh masuk dalam tekak ni...


Okay.. itu sahaja serba sedikit mengenai Neeza. Nak tag sape pulak ya? Tak payah takpe tak? Rasanya ramai yang dah buat tag ni kan.. :))

Sunday, June 1, 2008

a moment in life


This entry is not supposed to be here since I've had another entry already in schedule. But, due to some reasons, I need to jot about it.


I'm feeling down, really down. No one can understand the feelings because no one knows what I've been through. Only He knows about it. So much to think, so many possibilities and a lots of negative thoughts.


I wish, everything would vanish soon - the feelings and the thoughts. I've read in a few of my friends blogs about quit blogging. Even, I've got a friend who has already gone from this cyber world. The person just disappear without leaving a note. I missed the person indeed. I'm sure there must be reasons for the person to do that.


As for me, I've no intention to quit blogging since I've made this blog as a place to jot anything I like - without hoping so much for people to read them. Of course, I am happy having friends reading and gave comments in my blog, though I'm not so sure what kind of friends do I have around me. Are they the kind of 'a friend in need is a friend indeed' or the other way around. Oh God! Please throw away those thoughts from me...


What happen to me? Why am I writing such? I never really wrote something quite personal so far.


I take this as a test from Allah. It is one of the moment in life. Hopefully, I'll be okay soon.


-Never expect a diamond to shine forever-
-Trust yourself before others-

Sunday, March 23, 2008

A little nature lover



I'd love to look at and be able to name all plants/trees. I asked Kak Mahani about the plants that we saw during one of our morning walks in Kuantan and she answered,

"Entah lah neeza. Nanti I tanya tuan dia ye.." *giggle*

Ye la tu Kak Mahani.. Heheee... I also asked Anisz about the trees that I saw from our college van when we were on our way to KL and she said,

"Dah agak dah.. mesti Kak Neeza tanya punya" the smart Anisz.. hehee..



I enjoy a scenery of a wide blue sea with pretty swimming fish and dancing corals. When I was small, whenever we passed by Sg Pahang (or was it Sg Temerloh), Mok (my grandma) always woke me up (I slept as soon as I got into the car) and told me,

"Ja, bangun! Air blana (banyak)"

I would quickly got up and look through the window and said,

"Waaaa... Air blana... Air blana..."

(memang jakun habis) and then I woke Fuad (my brother) and Bada (my sister) up and asked them to look too (usually they didn't really care about that..). It was only me who enjoyed looking at the water. Heheee..



I love to observe all sorts of animals no matter how tame and wild they are (the wild of course only in a zoo or Animal Planet channel :P). Though I've been for so many times to the Teruntum Mini Zoo in Kuantan, I never get bored. Looking at the bears and crocodile was kind of fun to me. I like cats too thought I don't like to keep them as pets. They're not good for me and my kids (could trigger asthmatic and sinuses to some. So, better be safe than sorry)



Am I a nature lover? A boss of mine (oops! my ex boss - I'm unemployed now, remember? hehee..) is a nature lover. (pss.. pss... Kak pb, boss neeza ni oghe Kelate jugok hehee..) Despite his age and his tight schedule, he would always find time to go for trekking to remote places like caves, jungles and mountain. A real trekking with a few friends (usually he went with colleagues - a few of them were his subordinates).



This one? Definitely not tame enough for the kids :)





I'm not sure if I could do that. Before even planning to go, my mind would ask a few questions like:

"What about the kids? - who's gonna take care of them?",

"Does abang wanna come along? - knowing him, I don't think so. Heheee..",

"If Abang refuse to come with me, will he allow me to go then? - May be... But, I'll have a guilty conscious throughout the journey. Thus, I wouldn't enjoy the trekking at all..."
*sigh*



So many questions crop up in mind. You may say, nothing is impossible. Things can be arranged. Of course but my guilty conscious cannot be arranged. It's a psychology part that is stored in a small tiny room in the brain or I shall describe it as 'a mother's instinct'.




Oh well, excuse and excuse again... Hehehe.. Whatever it is, I think, I'd love to go for trekking with my family when all my kids grow up - the youngest is at least 10 years old! (Which means another 9 years old - if I don't have a new baby after this Heheee..). That also tells me, I'll be almost 43 by then. Is that possible? Perhaps, if I really take care of my health and body. Insyaallah...

Thursday, February 28, 2008

hahahaaaa!! ummi cry!!



While we were having dinner last night, Abang told us an incident that occured on his way back to the plant after having lunch with his Malay friends. He had to stop at the check point so that the police can inspect the car and the people inside.


In Malaysia, we normally called it 'Road block' but they call it 'check point' since they are many of them here. A check point is a stop point before anybody could enter the specific area. It operates to deter terrorist or criminal from entering the zone especially industrial area. Usually, if they saw a family (husband, wife and kids) occupied the car, they just let the car went off. But, if they suspected something inapt like all men in the car (especially all whites), they would stop the car and interrogate.

"Tadi, kat check point lepas balik lunch dengan S dan A, mat tu tanya abang, Filipini (Filipino)? Abang cakap la.. no!! Malazie.. (Malaysia). Suka dia dengar Malazie. Dia kata, Really? Malazie good.. good people"


Up to that point, I choked up. My eyes teared. Actually, I'm easily touched when anybody told me about how others (not Malaysian) look highly on Malaysia (the people and the country). Abang continued,

"Then abang kata Abdullah Badawi?? sambil tunjuk macam ni (thumb's up) kat dia. Lepas tu dia kata, nehhh!! Mahathir Mohammad!! sambil tunjuk cam ni (thumb's up). Mahathir Mohamad! (showed thumb's up), Abdullah Badawi! (showed thumb's down)"


I tried to cover myself from being seen by Abang. I didn't want him to see my watery eyes (it was tears then). But, Abang did notice,

"yang Neeza menangis tu apasal? Cerita pasal tu pun nak nangis?"

"Heheheee... mana ada nangis. Mana ada?"
while wiping my tears.

"Tengok kakak.. Ummi nangis. Abah cerita pasal Mahathir dia nangis. apa la ummi ni.."

Abang teased me. He knew I was like that. I would definitely cry when I'm emotionally affected. Then kakak really had a big laugh towards me,

"Hahahaahaha!!! Ummi cry. Abah only say Mahathir and ummi cry. Hahahahahaaa!!!"

Kakak teased me even more using her broken English. Then Kakak asked me,

"Nape ummi nangis? Ummi sedih ye?"

"Ye la.. ummi sedih. Heheee.." I giggled.


Kind of weird. Crying without specific reasons, she may think. But my kids already used to see me cried and I can simply tell them "Ummi sedih" and they accepted the reasons wholeheartedly. I cried a lot. I have a very soft soul. I could cry when people think there's no reason to cry at all. My emotion is so very fragile (or my tears is very cheap? heheee...)

Monday, January 28, 2008

Is that what they call telepathy?

This morning, while putting my kids folded clothes in their closet, I glanced at my daughter Coan's red baju kurung. I bought it 2 years ago to be worn on the 2006 Hari Raya Aidilfitri. I purposely bought it big so that she could wear it for at least 3 years (of course not for hari raya anymore laaa :) ).


It just came to my mind, the red baju kurung is just nice for Coan just in case the school is having 'The Color Day' again. The Color Day is whereby the school decide on a color theme - ie blue and the KG (Kindergarten) students have to wear blue outfit and bring anything like toys, fruit or vege (ada ke fruit or vege color biru? heheee)blue in color.


Last week, the color theme was GREEN and it was the first time ever. They never had such program before. Coan doesn't have any green outfit. So, we had to shop for the green blouse and pants for her. She brought a green apple and 2 beans (I just grabbed whatever I had in the fridge heheheee). That was last week. I thought there would be no more after this.


To my surprise, this afternoon, Coan brought back a piece of paper written 'The Color Day' and the color theme is RED! Subhanallah.... I just thought about it this morning and it's actually happening??


I guess it is purely coincidence. Anyway, it happened to me a few times but not always. Its like once in a blue moon. Do I actually have a brain that can read the future? Hahahaha!!!!


But, of course, the first time I looked at the piece of paper Coan gave me, I smiled and amazed..

Saturday, January 19, 2008

is it real or coincidence?

I've read Elisa's and found something interests me. Hahahaaa!!! Thanks Elisa. I wanted to update my blog (I easily get bored looking at old stories) but got no idea. I hope this test would cheer my page.




What Neeza Means

You are very intuitive and wise.

You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination.

You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy.

You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are friendly, charming, and warm.

You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat.

Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are incredibly wise and perceptive.

You have a lot of life experience.

You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy.

You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.







I'm not sure whether the result described my personality in total. But, 'prone to a little (a lot! actually) paranoia and jealousy' huhuuu!!! its definitely me..... But only towards these people (abang, ma and ayah). The rest, I wouldn't care... (Abang and ma would certainly agree on this one heheheee)

But, to be 'the best at everything'?? whhhooooo... its too much. It's not me at all. I'm a simple moderate human being. Everything is so so to me...

I would say the rest are somehow describe me sometimes, most of the time or only a few times.

I believe the people who created this test had done a study and not a 'fortune teller'. Did they?

Friday, January 18, 2008

I miss you...

I miss you... It has been almost 4 months that I left you. Don't worry.. I am happy now despite some problems that I have to face. But... I do miss you especially in the morning like this. A Friday morning... whereby I always eager to see you because I knew I could go back early for lunch and tomorrow will be Saturday. Its okay coz' I would always see you again on Monday.


Though sometimes, you make me tired until I felt like leaving you. Indeed, I love you. The memory that we've shared is invaluable. Nobody could give me the same memory that you gave. In fact, I had my little son when I was with you. I had my first girl when I was with the first one though. So, don't be so proud okay...


I still remember, the first time I saw you. I didn't know it was you. I turned back and asked the guard. He was angry and told me "kenapa tak tanya???" ish.. garang pak guard tu..


Days went by. I started to adore you. Your calmness and the colours in you really made me alive. And now, even by looking at your picture, I feel safe and secured. I can't deny that I really miss you.


I hope to see you when I am back to the country. I wanna spend hours with you (only if my little son allows that to happen..)


I hope you don't mind that I'm gonna put a few of your pictures here so that others could see... (or rather me could see)


I miss you...


I miss you...


I miss you...


I miss you...


I really miss you... Kolej Poly-Tech MARA Kuantan - my former workplace! *heheee*



the entrance to my office - yes, its an old building but our father (M@r@) is injecting some money to improvise it)



the scenery (I felt like working in a garden... fresh and breezy)





the hostel - the picture was taken during Merdeka month (explains why many flags there. the students are very patriotic!)





left is the students centre, right is my office. If you go straight, many other buildings...



Our van!! (aik?? our.. okayla.. their van :( I am not thestaff anymore..)

a sleeping tiger

I was so angry. Yesterday, I went to this Mwst Hsptal to get treated for my cough and cold. But the dumb (I hope its not too much to call him dumb coz that was not the first time. It has been the fourth time!) front desk guy who doesn't understand English that much, pissed me off. There were 2 guys at the front desk, one was Ind1@n and the other was s@ud1. The s@ud1 was not competent so, he asked abang to go to the Ind1@n who sitted next to him. Than I saw the Ind1@n asked abang to go to the s@ud1 back.

I had been watching abang (who was there at the front desk) was asked to go here and there. I was thinking why in the world abang was so nice, just followed whatever the men asked him to do. I saw abang went to he Ind1@n guy again. I went to the front desk and asked abang

"Apa masalahnya?" me still in control

"Mat s@ud1 ni tak reti buat kerja. Dia suruh pergi kat Ind1@ ni. Then Ind1@ ni kata, apa yang susah sangat. buat aje lah. then dia suruh mat s@ud1 tu entertain balik. Lepas tu dia kata ada problem pulak" the nice abang

"What's the problem?" the sleeping tiger started to awake (its me!)

"Your name is not in the system" the Ind1@n guy explained

"What?" huhuuuu!!! the angry me

"What's the name again?" the Ind1@n

"My son is Shahmey and my name is Nor Raneeza!" the tiger roared.

"Jangan la marah.." abang said to me quietly

"No. I can't stand this. I've been seeing people get their treatment but we are still waiting here. It really pissed me off" the tiger roared again

"No. its not here. Have you been here before?" the Ind1@n asked. Though I didn't really look at the s@ud1 who sitted next to him, I could notice he was staring at my face in silence.

"This is not the first time we come here. We came here for medical check up. We came here for his vaccination and paedetrician. How would we were able to get treatment then?" the fierce tiger.

He picked up the phone and spoke to somebody. After checking again and talked to the phone again, he said,

"Could you please go to the marketing. over there, turn right" the Ind1@n instructed

We went to the marketing and there were 2 s@udis men and 2 F1lpn0 women.

Another round of arguing... (I dare not write them here)

Finally, I decided to go back without pursuing with the treatment.... (Sakitnya hati aku dengan sikap sorang sorang ni..)

On the way back, I was thinking... I wish to tell the guy,

"M@lays1an are nice people. But, if something like this happen, we would be very pissed off"

But, I didn't. So, h*ll with it.... Come to think of it, I was actually pissed off with that mamat s@ud1 for his 'lembapness'. Everytime I went there, its always the Ind1@n guy got to entertain many customers... and the s@udi? He could afford to go here and there... (Baik tak yah duduk front desk kalau gitu)

Today, I am blogging coz I'm not angry anymore...

People who knew me would describe me as a kind and soft lady. Yupp.. I can be kind and soft but when something like that happen, I'll be like a tiger awake from it sleep *grin*